This is completely personal, but I have to tell somebody about it because it's just so lovely. Skipping over is totally accepted and encouraged... I have no real clue as to why I'm typing this right now. Okay. *takes deep breath* So, there's a guy. An actual guy I met this school year. While I have a huge crush on him, I'm not exactly sure about how he feels about me. At the start of the year, we pretty much hated each other. But he's in my same circle of friends, and he's suddenly starting to become increasingly kind to me. He talks to me much more often, even told me good morning today. We used to not talk really at all. So, today, we were in the computer lab, with me sitting in between him and my best friend, Houston. (I had actually been stealing Houston's chair for the last few days we've been in there, initially because it's in the corner of the lab and has a much bigger desk. Just so happens that the guy I like sits on the other side. Houston attempted to drag me out of it, succeeding, but then letting me sit there. I think that was partially because I told him how I felt about this other guy.) And at some point, whenever my crush would roll his chair over to watch what Houston was doing on his computer, he'd freaking poke me in the side or on my hip, which kind of irritated me because I'm already a nervous person who's really jumpy. He would just laugh and explain that he liked watching my reaction.
And yeah, I know exactly what this sounds like. Typical immature male behavior. But no, this guy is usually quiet, shy, withheld, and very respectful. So, really, I was shocked because I would never expect that from him - it just went against the rest of his personality.
Looking back, I should have poked the hell out of him. Another thing that was a lot more...sincere happened today, too. He asked me to look at some of his drawings, which I could tell took a lot of nerves. I told him they were great - they were. I just thought it was really sweet, and I guess I felt honored for him to let me look.
I asked Houston if he thought this guy liked me, and he said "I honestly don't know. He doesn't act like that with anybody else," I think he's just confused as I am. I don't know. This is the first time I genuinely liked somebody enough want them to like me back so bad, even want them to ask me out. I really don't want ask him and get rejected.
Later today, we have a freshman seminar class and usually I get out of mine to go my friend Hailey's, or she comes to mine. Can you guess who's also in that class? Houston, my best friend MaCay, their friend Julian, and yep - my crush. My friend Audrie might join and we call it "the fam." Today, every fam member, with the exception of Houston, actually wanted to come into our seminar class - which was exciting to me, at least. But they got called back to their original class to go outside. I went out with them since it was a review for Biology EOC. But I learned that he was had stayed inside because he was *Russian accent* "a very sick dog."
Obviously, my first reaction was "NO." to "aww, I hope he's feeling okay" to "would it be weird if I called him a sick puppy instead?" to finally "Oh, SHIT, I basically shared my tea with him all day."
When I got back in, I went to go ask him if wanted the rest of my tea to maybe cheer him up. I met him at the door, and he looked very troubled. He was looking like Warm Bodies. He had his things and was apparently leaving. He was one sick dog indeed. /shot/
TLDR; I might be sick, and I'm a loser.